Girl In Progress....

So being that my life has been kinda boring and I feel like I need "something" to keep me from going insane in these cold MN months, I was reading through my emails I received when I first started this blog.  Some background info - when I first began this blog, MSN featured me on their home page for a full 24 hours.  It was REALLY exciting to see my page being featured!!!  I received over 300,000 hits to my blog that day (well, many of them were from me checking users comments, but still....!).  I also received, just on that day, over 320 some emails!!!  I apologize right now to anyone that I did not get back to, as it was my initial intent to answer each and every one of the emails, even if only to say - thank you for the email!  I probably got through 200 some or so (because more kept poring in the next day and for several weeks that followed), and after spending an entire Sat. just responding to emails, my response rate plummeted worse than George W Bush's popularity ratings!  I just got overwhelmed in the attempt to give responses worthy of the great emails people sent. 

But now, going back to read the tremendously heart-felt and often inspiring emails that people sent, I really feel a renewed spirit to want to start back up this tremendously cool little internet community again.  Perhaps it is because I have been feeling extremely alone and like a little speck of dust amid a galactic planet of particles.  I haven't been inspired to write for quite a while, mainly because I didn't want to just complain and sound so negative all the time.  Does the world really need more negativity?  I think not.....but sometimes you just need to.....vent, I guess.   

So, what has been happening in the, well, like 6 months since I have last blogged?  The motorcycle riding thing - WAY fun!!!!  Yes, got totally hooked on speeding around town, and luckily the weather in MN allowed for me to ride up until Thanksgiving weekend! 

The guy situation.....ugg.....I knew you were going to ask about that......in usual Christa style, it hasn't been going well.  I went back on a couple of internet dating sites, after telling myself - "I am never going on one of those sites again"!  So I met a guy (mr. shy-guy, as I refer to him sometimes!) who, like others before, claimed to be one of the "nice" ones.  While I still want to believe this, his actions have left me thinking otherwise and even today I continue to deal with the confusion tornado which surrounds our brief history.  Mr. shy-guy's first dagger of hurt came when, upon my wondering if I was his girlfriend or just someone he wanted to keep around until something better came along, he said it felt like I was giving him an "ultimatum" (I now hate that word!!).  Ouch!  After giving him some time to think about this previous discussion, I was half prepared to break things completely off with him.  But I bought into his seemingly heart-felt act of him not wanting to end things and saying he really cared for me (the teary-filled eyes were a good touch too!).   

So we tried dating, doing the exclusive boyfriend/girlfriend thing.  But we seemed like we were just on different pages, and hardly saw one another, even on the weekends.  This wasn't what I expected dating someone would be like, and it frustrated me to feel like he had lost interest in me - the second dagger flung my way.  Our dating status lasted all of 3 weeks, until I just couldn't stand the frustration and confusion of why he felt so distant.  We tried to talk things out, but just couldn't come to a compromise as to how to fix things.  We broke up on Valentine's Day - I'm sure Hallmark has a card for that as well!  And while we said we were going to try just taking a break, going back to simply "going on dates" again, I have seen and heard even less from him since the decision.  How do you reconnect with someone you hardly ever see or talk to?  It wasn't all on him, though, I too have been feeling less than stellar interest and frustrated at seeming like I was chasing after someone who didn't want to be caught.  So I pulled away as well.   

Where are things now?  Your guess is as good as mine.....I am actually supposed to talk to mr. shy-guy tonight, that is, if he really does call like he said he "might".  Does the excitement show?  Yeah, I know....not good huh?   

Finally, the job that was still fairly new when I last wrote?  Yeah, that too is not working out so well either.  It's just not the kind of work I think I want to do.  I believe I would like to go back to working on websites, but would really like to get into the Development/Programming side.  The problem comes in that I have only taken a ba-gillion classes in Web Programming, but lack the experience that companies want.  But I am working on creating a website that will at least demonstrate that the basic knowledge that I learned in my Web classes, and I thought it might actually be a little fun too!  

So, I might slowly try to begin to write in this blog again, as sometimes it is like cheap therapy.....plus it really makes me happy to see the great comments that people leave - they make me feel like I am less alone in this world, which is just what I need right now.  Thanks for that, everyone!  Make it a great day!!      

Yes, I went out and bought a motorcycle this weekend!!  Whoohoo!!  Isn't it awesome (see pic)?!!?  It's even in my favorite color - blue!!  I haven't actually brought it home yet, as the dealer is off a major highway and I am scared to drive it that fast yet myself.  A friend of mine is going to drive it home for me (thanks man!!!), so then I can practice driving my new bike before venturing out on any major roads. 

Now, just have to get some cool gear to go with it....well, at least a jacket so I am a little bit safer while riding (it might be just to look cool too.....ha!!).  Go out and have some fun everyone!!    

Yes!!  I passed my motorcycle class!!  Whoohoo!!  So now I just have to go the DMV to get it endorsed on my license and then I am a legitimate motorcycle driver.  I was a little worried, as I didn't quite get the shifting down very well at first, but the Sunday class I got a different motorcycle (the one from Sat. died because the other class left it on and drained the battery!).  The Sunday motorcycle seemed a bit easier to shift and I got the hang of it after more practice.  Don't worry, everyone, when I do get a motorcycle, I plan to practice a TON first before going on the open road.  There is a high school a couple of blocks from me, so as long as I can get the motorcycle there, then I can practice in the empty lot more on the weekends.  Should keep me out of trouble and give me something fun to do!!  Can't wait!!!     

Hey everyone!  Sorry about the really extended absence this time.....not sure what prompted the non-blogging phase, but it is really cool to hear that I was missed (at least by a small, dedicated, and might I add, extremely intelligent and good-looking group!!  o.k.....sucking up a little there, but that never hurts, right?!?.....ha!!).  Guess I felt like most things I had to write or talk about would just sound like complaining, or as I have been told before "whining" - I really hate being told that!!!  Never liked that word..... 

So, I'll try to get back into entering a few more exciting entries once in a while, as getting comments from you awesome cyber-space readers is really what makes it all worth while.   

My latest extremely fun quest is that I just took a motorcycle riding class!!  We just had the "book" or classroom part so far, and took a test at the end, which I thankfully passed!  Oh, and that is one reason I got back to this blog - I met a very cool (and seriously inspirational) young woman who said she followed my blog page and even had a link to me on her page!!  I will include Michelle's link to her blog page on my list of the Cool Crowd......geez - being gone so long and coming back, I see they changed this whole spaces thing around on me....ugg!!!  Quit trying to confuse this girl, msn people!   

Anyway, in true to Christa form, the motorcycle class was of course enhanced by mr. oh-so-hot-blond-motorcycle-riding instructor guy!!  Whooohooo!!!  Sorry, but I've really been on an extended dry spell lately and it's like a starving dog seeing a 40 oz. t-bone steak......one can't help but drool just a little!  (I'll try to keep it under control!)  I get to see mr. hot-motorcycle-instructor for the riding portion this weekend too!!  Can you tell I am just a little excited!?!?!  Yes, need to concentrate on the riding part I suppose.....ugg.....! 

So that is my exciting news.....I'll update more about different things happening in my life in a different blog....some not so fun stuff has also been going on, so this motorcycle class is really an exciting event that was definitely needed to ensure the sanity of this blogger!!  Have a terrific weekend everyone and send me your awesome comments - what exciting events are happening in YOUR life???